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Sunday, June 28, 2009



你的回話凌亂著.
在這個時刻.
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿.
甜蜜散落了.

情緒莫名的拉扯.
我還愛你吶.
而你斷斷續續唱著歌.
假裝沒事了.

時間過了走了.
愛情面臨選擇.
你冷了倦了我哭了.
離開時的不快樂.
你用卡片手寫著.
有些愛只給到這真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.說好的.幸福吶
我懂了.不說了.愛淡了.夢遠了
開心與不開心.一一敘說著.你在不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻.我都還記得

你不等了.說好的.幸福吶
我錯了.淚乾了.放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著.
要怎麼停呢

你的回話凌亂著.
在這個時刻.
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿.
甜蜜散落了.

情緒莫名的拉扯.
我還愛你吶.
而你斷斷續續唱著歌.
假裝沒事了.

時間過了走了.
愛情面臨選擇.
你冷了卻了我哭了.
離開時的不快樂.
你用卡片手寫著.
有些愛只給到這真的痛了.

怎麽了.你累了.說好的.幸福吶
我懂了.不說了.愛淡了.夢遠了
開心與不開心.一一敘說著.你在不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻.我都還記得

你不等了.說好的.幸福吶
我錯了.淚乾了.放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著.
要怎麼停呢


it has been an emotional time for me.

special thanks to all my friends and family

who have been supporting me and comforting me

throughout this whole time :)

just when i thought the world had turned my back on me

and left me behind,

i realised that it was me that had turned my back to the world.

thank you all! :D

its nice to see my gd frends still there for me when i needed

them. it means alot to me.

special thanks to banana de family for being so nice to me, and her bros

who comfort me and giving me support, her mom and dad for treating

me well all this time:D

i wish you all the best in everything!


will be goin ns on 16th june.. 1 more day le :)

and i gotta reach there at 1pm+

to pasir ris take shuttle bus and

den take boat to tekong le.



below is an old pict of me playing the piano...

and with too much feeling! haha and you guys

wont be seeing me with my hair again.

i decided to go separate ways with my hair.

i know its sad, but my hair will come

back some day. i dun need anyone's pity.

i need beijing101. LOL

wahhaha wat i toking sia =.=


Sunday, June 14, 2009



some people told me : DUN GIVE UP!! must jia you!!!!

some people told me : it's not worth it la noob.

some told me : na de qu fang de xia. (to be able to obtain and give up)

some told me : follow your heart.

some told me : dun sad la! you deserve better!




but i'll do whats right.

i will continue to believe in the good in her:)

until the day she return,

i hv decided not to neglect anyth in my life that makes me unique.

i'll pay more attention to my frends, my hobbies and sports.


i will show to her wat love is :)
Saturday, June 13, 2009



no one comes my blog anymore:)

guess it makes it more easy to pour out my feelings with privacy..

there is a first time for everything,

and for me, loving her changed me into a person that i nvr knew i was.


before i ever met her, i can tell u what kind of person i was :

-i was a blockhead ( she would always say square-mail):p

-i did not even know how to love anyone

-i did not know how to care for anyone

-i was totally clueless about basically everything.

-everyone saw me as the tim, the guy who plays
piano, basketball, and hangs out with totally cool frends :)


love really changes a person alot.

made me feel warm for the first time in 20 years.

i've always had frends and family by my side but

i always felt something was missing,

until this girl came along to change my life completely :)


suddenly i was doing things for her that i nvr knw i would do..


went with her to lots of places,

had lots of fun and laughter!!

she looked so happy :) and it made me even more happy:))

dats when i decided to put in more effort to make her feel special and xinfu,

to feel loved, and always to make her laugh, so that she wud

forget all her painful memories:)


looking at all the photos we had taken together makes me

smile all the time. :)

hahahhahahahahahahahahahahaha (see? i laughin liao)


loving someone is not about that special feeling someone gives.

in relationships, we all have the same special feeling in the beginning..

as time goes on, as that special feeling disappears,

it does not mean love is gone.

it means love has changed to a whole new level :)

mature love.


everyone makes mistake. Do not follow your heart blindly.

it takes a mistake to make you realise how much

you actually cherish your love ones.


i will wait for you no matter wat happens. :)

i promise to change for the better.

will you?
Friday, June 12, 2009



do you still remember those days we spent tgther?

we all make mistakes and make rash decisions.

its okay to regret.

its okay to make mistakes.

but we have to learn from mistakes.

and it makes our love even stronger.

if i was given one more chance to have found you

like how u found me in the beginning,

then i will never ever let you go again ..

its no one's fault this happened.

i will wait for you.

just want you to know

you're the best thing that ever happened in my life.

i love you :)








Wednesday, June 10, 2009



What is the distinction between mature love and a common misconception of what love is: the symbiotic relationship? Mature love is stable, a union of two people who respect themselves and each other. Symbiotic love is needy and dependent. Symbiotic relationships demand that one person has power over another. This results in the loss of the integrity of both partners. Mature love means that both individuals in the partnership have room to be themselves, even while being together. In the symbiotic relationship, one partner is driven by need and fear that the other partner will leave. In mature love, each partner is free and whole, choosing, rather than being driven, to give love to the other partner.

Mature love requires giving your love with no strings attached, with no expectations. Many of us have learned from society that to give means "to give up" or "to give away" -- in essence, creating a deficit in ourselves. Further, we learn to give only as much as we expect to receive in return, lest we end up feeling cheated by giving more. Giving, as it exists in mature love, is quite different from these types of messages we have received. Rather than being seen as a sacrifice or an investment in future returns, giving in mature love comes from a desire to give and an ability to do so. In the words of Erich Fromm, author of The Art of Loving published in 1956, "Giving is the highest expression of potency... more joyous than receiving, not because it is a deprivation, but because in the act of giving lies the expression of my aliveness."

In a symbiotic relationship, one partner gives up a significant part of himself or herself in order to maintain a peaceful relationship. This individual, ruled by a fear of being alone, will sacrifice parts of his or her identity for the sake of keeping the relationship intact. Short-term conflict is avoided, and the status quo is maintained. In the long run, though, there is a price to be paid: the loss of one's individuality. If one partner idolizes the other and is willing to sacrifice himself more completely, then the other partner has more power and control over the relationship. When the balance of power is unequal, the relationship becomes unsatisfying for both partners; almost inevitably, it ends. There are a lot of people willing to give up an awful lot to avoid being alone. They are willing to give up who they are, what they are, and what they want and need. They are willing to sacrifice their individuality for the love of another.

Any person who is willing to make such a sacrifice lacks self-love, and thus is incapable of maintaining a mature, loving relationship. Self-love is where love for others has to start. Giving up your individuality will eventually come back to haunt you; you will end up feeling anger, resentment, and/or regret. The outcome of one partner resenting the other is the deterioration of the relationship. People need relationships, but they also need to be fulfilled within themselves. When you give up your dreams for the sake of your partner's, you do so at the cost of your own individuality and personal growth.

When you enter into a relationship, it does not mean that your personal life stops. Your life does not totally change because you are with another person. You have to maintain your own individuality. You have to have your own personal goals. You need to maintain the friendships, hobbies and interests that you had before you met your partner. If you give these up for the sake of your relationship, you are giving up your life. When your partner first met you, they were attracted to you as an individual. It's important that you keep your individuality-- that's what attracted your partner in the first place. Maintaining your individuality will enable you and your partner to build a mature loving relationship.

Many relationships fail today because one partner have given up too much of themselves for the other. You have to love yourself first, before you can love another. If you enter a relationship and give up all the things that define you as an individual, you are not giving yourself the love that you need. Sooner or later, if you lose your identity, if you stop giving to yourself, you will be unable to give to your relationship.

It's important not to confuse identity and individuality with flexibility in your relationship. Individuality is about the things that make you who you are. Flexibility is about compromise. Compromise will always be necessary in any relationship that you have. In order to compromise, you have to be committed to honest communication of your feelings and needs at all times. In building a life together, problems will arise.

Problem solving through honest communication is the key to building a mature, loving relationship. Neither you nor your partner should give up anything that makes you the unique person that you are. It's up to you and your partner to find the balance that you both need to succeed in a rising loving relationship.



The best things in life are the things you cant see




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Monday, June 08, 2009