ever had a time when u wished to have the power

to turn back time?

i'd wish to be able to..

but there'd be nth much i cld change either.

so i'll live wif it.


guess this childish sentence is gona come out

of my mouth, "i 'm emo-ing . "

hate that word emo. makes pple look

stubborn and selfish. i'd rather

say that my heart is exhaursted.

having to face all sorts of problems

from pple.



but one thing i'd agree with ken is dat..

no matter how gloomy i'd become,

seeing KE dudes makes me smile! =)


sometimes, i think i'm jus puting in

too much effort to try make pple happy.

part of me keep telling me dat

seeing pple happy makes me happy too.

the other part of me is telling me

that would i be happy doin dat

all the time?

am i selfish to ask dat qsn?

.. i'd wish dat someone'd

be dere for me.


and special thx to my frend

who managed to figure out wat

that vase represented in my previous

post. but i did not write that story for u.

lol Kpo ar .. but thks;)

and no, i did not copy that from anywhr.

i jus wrote from the bottom of my butt...

ehm i mean heart.

(cant belive i jus cracked a joke. lol)


and argh.

and my head hurts so much rite now.

cant think straight.

trying hard to fake smiles all the time.

wished i could jus smile for myself this

time, and stop smiling for others.



despite the gloom, someth cheered

me up ytd. it was the super large

moon in the nite sky. so beautiful!
Saturday, November 24, 2007