wud i fail if i study? lolz



spend another day wif KE dudes

playing badminton. lolz brought 3 rackets,

but too bad only one was used.. haha..

even though din had the mood to play,

we still managed to have loads of fun!

i learned some evil weevil tactics to

bully pple in badminton!

weihan n i teamed against jinjin n

sueying... play halfway, sueying stopped

awhile. haha dats when the fun begins!

we started hittin the shuttercork left

and right, make jin jin run alot! wahahaha

laugh till cry sia...

after badminton, we jogged 4 rounds

on the track.. and it feels so darn good

to run! =D

aftr dat, we went to sunset way to

eat pizza near jin's house. the pizzzza

is so dam big la!!! zomg... ordered

a extra large hawaiian pizza, and a

large vegetarian pizza. hohoho!

so yummy! we used the full bottle

of shredded cheese till there was

one fifth left. lolz .. will upload

photos soon! =D

looking forward to meet them

again! gona go buy some attire

for the concert!

peace out!

=D
Friday, November 30, 2007



u don't have to say a thing. =)

Thursday, November 29, 2007



piano practise on wed was a blast!

woooooow!

bt the yellow lightings were terrible bcos

the black keys were casting

shadows on the white keys.

but heng heng dun tink i made a

mistake. i tink i seem to be

playin worse every time though.


after a dry run, went to support

joyce in her competition..

zomg! her voice is powderful!

very unexpectedly entertaining!

=D

heard abt dat incident wif the nyp

exchange program.. hate arrogant

pple. i may be one, but even arrogant

pple hate arrogant pple too! lol wat

i talking.. =.=

heard alot of interesting stuff goin on

nxt yr. the performance at esplanade.

wow. if i could perform dere, it'll probably

be the greatest achievement i'd ever

accomplish in my life. lolz.. definitely

someth i can tell my kids nxt time.

haha...


duno why, perhaps i was born this way,

but i reali like to perform in

front of pple. haha

i mean, its the only time when lots

of eyes are staring right down at me.

performin in front of KE dudes is becoming

like a breeze.. haha becos i know them

well enuff not to take it seriously =p

and i've been playin the piano and keyboard

for 3 yrs liao.. guess the most enjoyable

period cld be the time when i worked..

haha i always taught nearly

all the part timers

how to play the keyboard... so dam funny..

wo men you fu tong xiang, you nan tong dang.

and we often get scolded by our

superiors togther. haha.. but one thing

i did not regret, was spreading the music

to the world!!!! =D but u think teach songs

by fingering and memorising is easy?

NO! its very dam tough... especially

for pple who play music for the first time.

haha but lucky i got alot of patience!


and definitely, i'd like to express my

sincere gratitude to

dat gal dat changed my whole life!

dat gal who open the world of music to me!

dat gal who played that simple yet beautiful

song!

dat gal who changed me to who i m today!

shes my 'shi fu' !! =D well..

shi fu without knowing her name >.<


for pple who duno wat i'm talking abt,

shes dat person who inspired me

with dat simple canon in D back in

those times when i combed my hair

with side parking , plus an overdose of

jel. wahahah!

i'd probably spend my entire life

being grateful for meeting such a person.


haha only a few pple have actually

made a huge difference in my life.

and shes one of them. =)


evn though i am contented with my life,

sometimes i feel that

something is missing in my life.

still searching for that answer.

still searching...



cheers!
Thursday, November 29, 2007
































miss the gd old days.

sentosa soon anyone? =D
Monday, November 26, 2007



went to church today. =)

its been a long time.

i've been too endulged in the

things of this world

that my mind have become weak.

haha..

definitely feel much better.

frends at church are certainly

much more different den the pple

outside.

they're much more pleasant,

and have certain moral values

instilled in their minds.

its gd to be mixing with this kinda

pple. i tink i need more

christian friends. =X

24 days more to go.

i've gotta a real gd idea

of wat to do. =)
Sunday, November 25, 2007



was reading all my thots i wrote when

i was sec 4. brings smiles to me =)

i was so young back den, too young to

understand what life was abt. =)

well if u're interested i guess u cld

read them. but u cant make fun

of me ar! i'll roar at u! =D


http://everlasting-phoenix.spaces.live.com/?lc=1033


cheers.
Saturday, November 24, 2007



ever had a time when u wished to have the power

to turn back time?

i'd wish to be able to..

but there'd be nth much i cld change either.

so i'll live wif it.


guess this childish sentence is gona come out

of my mouth, "i 'm emo-ing . "

hate that word emo. makes pple look

stubborn and selfish. i'd rather

say that my heart is exhaursted.

having to face all sorts of problems

from pple.



but one thing i'd agree with ken is dat..

no matter how gloomy i'd become,

seeing KE dudes makes me smile! =)


sometimes, i think i'm jus puting in

too much effort to try make pple happy.

part of me keep telling me dat

seeing pple happy makes me happy too.

the other part of me is telling me

that would i be happy doin dat

all the time?

am i selfish to ask dat qsn?

.. i'd wish dat someone'd

be dere for me.


and special thx to my frend

who managed to figure out wat

that vase represented in my previous

post. but i did not write that story for u.

lol Kpo ar .. but thks;)

and no, i did not copy that from anywhr.

i jus wrote from the bottom of my butt...

ehm i mean heart.

(cant belive i jus cracked a joke. lol)


and argh.

and my head hurts so much rite now.

cant think straight.

trying hard to fake smiles all the time.

wished i could jus smile for myself this

time, and stop smiling for others.



despite the gloom, someth cheered

me up ytd. it was the super large

moon in the nite sky. so beautiful!
Saturday, November 24, 2007



once upon a time, there lived a gal.

she had this small vase, and treasured it alot.

and it was very beautiful indeed.

her closest frend came into her house

one day and accidentally bum into the vase.

all she could do was watch from afar,

as the vase fell onto the ground and

shattered into lots of pieces. and she

felt so sad, for that vase was all she

had, she had been with that vase for

all her life and now it had been brokened

by her closest frend. The only words

she could stammer out was" get out of

my house." that frend left her house

and nvr came back. she wept and

slowly pieced all her vase back with

glue, it was tough. she took months and

months, and when she finally completed

that vase, it was the same vase, yet

it didnt looked the same. there were

cracks everywhr. it wasnt the same

as before. she became more protective

of her vase. she did not let anyone

touch her vase this time.

days passed, and she came to know

of another close frend. slowly,

she opened up to that frend and

let that frend hold her precious vase.

that frend playfully juggled with it,

not knowing its true value. and

finally it happened again. it slipped from

his hand, and smashed onto the ground.

she yelled at that frend, and dat frend

ran away..

her vase was brokened and she didnt bother

putting it back together this time.

it simple was too tough. and she didnt

want it to break again. so she gathered

all the pieces and put them in a chest.

and kept it locked.

and days passed, she came to know of another

frend. this frend came to know of her vase

one day. he admired the way she treasure

her vase, even though it was broken.

and he said to her confidently,

" let us fix this vase together ."

and she pondered awhile.

should she trust him?


to be continued...

haha can u interpret what i'm tryin to say?



cookies ?

muffins?

cakes?

somebody help me!



went to play bbal today. somone

hit me on the head.. felt so dizzy.

it hurts so much. and got a big scratch

on my arms. >.<

suddenly the whole world seems to be

against me. =(

what am i to u?
Thursday, November 22, 2007



was walking home from schl when i saw this bird..

it wasnt simply any ordinary bird..

this bird cldnt fly. wat wud u have done if u

were to see a helpless bird? definitely mus help de

mah.. so i took awhile to catch it.. evn though it cldnt

fly, it was stil rather agile in running away frm me..

it ran under a bench which a gal was sitting..

haha but i dun care la.. jus chiong for e bird. lolz

brought it home, and realised it had an injured

wing. i tried to feed it wif bread crumps but it was

probably too frightened to eat anyth.. haha
















when my dad returned.. he dam shock la..

scold me somore =.= canot put animals

on the dining table. zzz watever. den he said i

had release it. how sia.. it cant even fend for itself

.. it'll probably get bitten to death by red ants.

zzz.. left it to calm dwn in my balcony.. and aftr dat

took it to bukit buttock nature reserve...

den set it free! =D hope it stays strong n live on!

haha

speakin of this reminded me long ago in my sec

class.. our teacher was chatting wif us on the

news dat someone got stabbed n killed in

westmall, and no one even stopped dat killer..

he was saying if we were in the

same situation, it would be better not to help,

and dat would we rather help n get killed?

i ponder over wat he said.. perhaps for him,

he simply had too much to lose.

so he wudnt even try to help.

if i was in westmall dat day, i wudnt even wan

to watch someone kill another person.

i wud have stopped the person no matter

wat it takes. even if it took my life. haha becos

at least i had done someth to help.. canot

siu shou pang guan.. i wonder how those

pple that witness dat incident felt. how

cld they ever lived with the shame dat

they cld have saved someone, but they didnt,

and jus watched the victim being stabbed

to death. haha.. well dats what i feel. =X

different pple have their different point of

view.. what wud u have done if u were

at the place where it all happened?


haha.. perhaps all these are what my best

frend describes as situational ethics.

he once asked me, if i could choose -

to Lie and save a 100 lives,

or to tell the truth and all the 100 lives

are killed. what would u choose?

would u Lie and save a 100 lives?

or wud u do whats right and tell the truth?

what if u had a love-one

inside the 100 lives abt to be taken?

haha.. situational ethics can let u see

what type of person u realli are. whether

u are a person with strong faith, or

a person wif a weak heart. haha

quite interesting eh? =p


back to animals. my frends n i have

lots of compassion for animals =p

we saw this stray cat long ago..

it had a crooked tail.. haha mayb

a car ran over it before? =X

















haha .. he brought it home and fed it,

and slp with it.. the most funny thing was dat

the cat shit on his bed! his parents din

know abt that cat so his mum thought

he shit on his own bed. lol dam funny la

in the end his parents found out, and he

had to release it. we always bring dat cat to

our nearest market to buy food for it.. haha

=D n the food looks yummy lol.. even

i was droolin. >.< lol joke

argh!

i got schl now! (n i'm stil blogging at home)

take care YO!

=D

cheers!
Sunday, November 18, 2007

















its realli cool to see rainbows outside my window.

its caused by that tiny white dot at the bottom..

haha =D


project days sux!!!!!! my lecturer, nicknamed

the saliva man... he can repeat something

up to EIGHT times! he was tryin to explain

wat components we needed for our project..

i was like counting the amount of times he'd

repeat.. and i signaled to my frend who was

sitting beside me.. lolz cldnt stop grinning.

and the more he talks, the more bubbles

acumulates at the sides of his mouth.

argh... see my lecturer liddat.. i nearly took

a tissue to help him wipe his mouth. lolz

its as though he taken too much sleepin pills..

jus like those chinese dramas, when some

pple wana commit suicide, they gorged themselves

with the whole bottle of sleepin pills...

and nxt mornin, they are found dead wif

lots of white foam on their mouths. dam funny..

lolz..

haha was goin home ytd, when i met e KE dudes,

on their way to badminton. haha .. decided to join

them.. hvn played badminton for a long long time..

last time my family very into sports de... got cycling,

swimming, PING PONG, badminton, jogging..

lolz.. still rmbered a time when we were small..

my dad used to play remote control cars wif us..

he bought a realli exp car for me.. but got one time

i pee- ed on it. no idea why.. but i jus pee- ed on my

remote cntrl car.. and spoilt it. and ever since

den, we've nvr touch remote cntrl cars for a long

long time. lolz


wellz playin badminton is quite fun sometimes..

i play til my hands like jelly liddat.. argh..

i feel the Six Pack appearing.. not on my stomach..

but on my hands. lolz

hope to be able to play basketball wif KE dudes

soon.

hope to see u soon!

cya. =D
Saturday, November 17, 2007



once upon a time,

he wakes up early in the morning..

the moment he wakes up, questions

swirl around his head. he's feeling confused.

hes trying to see things from

another's point of view. but he

knows it's not good to think that way

all the time. he sighs and

looks at himself in the mirror

and wonders how stupid can he get.

he thinks he should lay low for

awhile and see what happens next.

perhaps its because people around

him are getting sick of him.

no one'd even notice.

the end.


someone once told me dat it

rocs to be single. i wonder if dat

is ever true.













=x click to enlarge. abit blur though.













cldnt sleep and drew this. =)

cheers me up once in a while.










mayb i'm not gd at drawing =X










this cheers me up too =)
thx jus.

i'll probably feel better after eating my
dinner. haha

no cheers for today.
=p
Thursday, November 15, 2007



So impossible, as it may seem,

u've gotta fight for every dream.

because who's to know,

which one u let go,

would hv make u complete.

for me, is to be able to be with u.
to be able to hold u in my arms and say i love u.
dats a dream i'm fightin for. =]

found those two sentences reali meaningful.


went for KE ytd. reali love those funny dudes

at piano practises.. its like so happening all the

time! haha.. began wif the boring theory part.

and yea! my book of the living has got 1 more

new signature! blue in color somore. lolz.

hope to squeeze 100 signatures on my front

cover.. ^^

zomg! got lots of new interestin movies comin up!

zomg zomg! i wanna watch doraemon! i wanna watch

beowolf!! i wanna watch the golden compass nxt mth!!

=D ok chill. lolz

wah i siao le... talk half way change topic. =.=

din know i so easily distracted. lolz well after the theory

lessons, we went to have a dry run, a rehearsal on those

songs we wud play on dat day. i was the first to play the

opening song, Melodies of Life! theres someth special abt

this song.. i dun get tired of playing it! each time i play

dat song, its jus like telling a story! so meaningful lar..

but too bad i played til halfway.. my mind suddenly

drifted away.. somebody appeared in my mind..

=p wahahha den i lost track of

wat i was playin momentarily.. i gasped in disbelief..

it shld hv been impossible to make such a careless mistake.

lolz if its was on the concert day, all the audience wud hv

been gaspin wif me. wahahaha! after dat i managed to

finish the whole piece.. and i thought it was alittle up to

my standard.. haha

i got high expectation of myself leh.. =p




i feel dam pai seh sia.. they say i play first piece

they tio demoralize le. lolz whr got so dramatic la

haha.. i tink i shld make more mistakes to make

them feel better. =]

after dat the rest of my mozart group played..

and all the solo pieces rocs la! haha.. i found the

xmas melodies too simple le.. pple pay 5 bucks

not for such simplicity leh.. =X haha and the singing

definitely can be improved! lolz kenrick!! u shld sing

wif yur natural voice! haha i tink it wud sound nicer

if u dun change yur voice n jus sing naturally. haha..

and i duno wat the pros think but for me, if u were

to play the piano, u shld move yur body along wif yur

fingers. dat shld bring alil feelin to the song.=D

so the gals shld shake more hums, and the guys

shld shake more bums. and i need my gum.. u dum dum.

cheers to all my dum gum fum KE dudes. Yo! dawg! =D

btw ...

i have 10 tickets to the yr end concert.
i'll be performing!!!

heres the repetuire:

(Mozart Group)

Melodies of Life by me =D
The Prelude: Ave Maria
Wo Men Zhen Me Le by S.H.E
Yu Jian by Stephanie Sun
The Scientist by Coldplay
Si Shou Lian Tan (Secret)
Lu Xiao Yu (Secret)
Secret (Piece that travels 20 years through time)

Interval (Mozart Group)

Guan Huai Fang Shi
Fur Elise
Scarlet
When the Saints Go Marching In
Beauty and the Beast
A Whole New World

(Debussy Group) Duets

Hall of the Mountain King by Grieg,
Edvard Trepak by Tchaikovsky
Hungarian Dance No. 5 by Brahms
Mambo by Christopher Norton
Polonaise in A Major (military) by Chopin
Ballet by Debussy Calypso by Christopher Norton
QuartetStars and Stripes FOREVER by John Philip Sousa

(Mozart Group)

Christmas Medley
Santa Claus is coming to Town
Hark! The Herald Angels Sing
Let it Snow! Let it Snow! Let it Snow!
Deck the HallsSilent Night
O Holy Night
We wish you a merry Christmas (Finale)


=D

1 ticket reserved for elliot.
9 more to go =D
Wednesday, November 14, 2007



bringin to u all an old song from westlife..

enjoy~! =D

i m back from a day of exciting activities!

Woooooow!

went for the maze thingy at atrium in e morn,

and i got lost sia.. @.@ some gal kip telling

me to re-do, and i went round and round..

sweating like a pig dat dun sweat. lol

well the maze is someth like a aids awareness

thingy.. they got to chop on our hands

some invisible thingy.. in the end the end i

realised wat those chops were for. lolz

i got a hiv negative, while Ken got a positive.

wahahaha! xD

and then i went to coop wif my proj mate

to buy some snacks. i asked him to share wif

me buy e chocolate meltykiss, and he say i siao ar..

2 guys share meltykiss seemed weird. lol fine.

decided to buy this innocent lookin green peas..

and as i popped one into my mouth.. i nearly

Explode!!! argh! i read the wordings carefully,

it said WASABI FLAVOR. wat the heck.

no choice.. i had to eat it.. it cost me 1.45 somore.

>.<>.< well.. i cldnt finish those

wasabi peas.. decided to let my frend try some

wifout lettin them know. lolz dam funny la

seeing the look on their faces when the taste

of wasabi spread all over their tongues.

lolz. i will henceforth

declare dat i will nvr touch anything related

to wasabi in my entire life ever again. but still

wasabi ice cream is nice. ;) lol.

went to the music room after my lessons...

have u ever seen a piglet, grow a patch of

grass on the top of her head? xD zomg! so

awesome la! well, mingli!!! yur hair rocs

nonetheless!! stylo milo sia! =D but someth

darker wud have been more decent. wahahah

ok. after KE, i went home awhile, and went

suntec donut factory, amd wanted to buy

donuts for someone* de =p too bad only

have kaya flavor. wahahah... ended up

buyin this 70% cocao , dark chocolate

for her*. hope u like it ar xD den went

taka to sent to meet dat someone*

met alot of familiar faces on the way.

its as though the whole of ngee ann was

stalking me. wahahahah! xD ok nvm.

so the moral of todays story is - dun buy

wasabi peas from co-op.

cheers.
Monday, November 12, 2007





hope yur eyes can be brown* enough to
see what i want to say to u.. =p

lalalalalalalalaalal.....

when u're around, u give me strength
to say things i normally wouldnt.
i feel as though i had became a different person
you became the light on the dark side of me.

if there was a light shining towards you..

those smiles u've been giving me,
those stares u've been giving me,

would u reach for it?

thx for making me feel warm
thx for makin an effort to understand me
thx for making me a better person
thx for everything
will you let me do the same for you?

or let it reach for u?

there was a time when i felt dat
there wasnt any point in me living
in this fk-up world.(woops=x)
now i found dat reason to live, and
dat reason is you.

for me, i will reach for that light. =)

perhaps dat gal i've been searchin for
my entire life is standin rite in front of
me.

hope dat light doesnt go away.

what wud u do, if i were
to tell u that i am falling for u?

cheers






Saturday, November 10, 2007



I'm back from another fun filled KE outing! =D

went to steamboat at marina ystrday..

had a reali hectic day ystrday..

actually thought of goin ice skating de..

=p had a change of plans..

sometimes i feel as though i'm a frog in a well sia..

sooo sua ku.. lol went to orchard lookin for centre

point... had to ask some guy for directions , and he gave

me dat shocked expression, and flexed his muscles,

den said "centre point is over there!" lol siao ar..

went to escort the 'princess' to marina. lolz =p

wahahaha! met raphael n piglet on the way there.

too bad the rest were so late sia...

went to dragon village first , but they gave us seats

besides lots of trees, beside the drain... and the walls

also got blood stains... so freaky!

in the end we went to the chen hua si hai sien. lolz did

i spell wrngly?

waited for quite some time before we cld sink our

teeth into anyth...

well the one thing i enjoyed most abt steamboating there

was the live prawns.. hahah throw in le stil can fly out!

all e gals were freaked out YO!

haha took lots of unglam photos >.<

hope our photographer deletes them !

and KENRICK!!! pls fix yur phone~!

no one can contact u sia! lolz

(argh lazy do the color fonts le lar)

too bad we started the steamboat late...

if not we cld have gone to the arcade n

beat all the records like ken said . lol =)

and the day ended. wahahah after sending

her* home,

went to meet eliot at westmal.. den we

walked back home. n chatted abt lots of

interestin stuff under my block.

very very fruitful conversations. lolz

i can see things through a different

point of view. lolz

cheers to her*.

lol xD
Thursday, November 08, 2007



i have an important announcement to make.

i have finally gotten a hair-cut!!!

hahaha =D

went to marina AGAIN =.=

went on sunday.. but my hairstylist had

like 3 customers alrdy waiting for him..

and i was alrdy sendin someone home.

but today is the day!

went inside the salon, and my stylist

was alrdy busy.. had to wait like 10 min

lol... at least he rmbers me.. i dun evn

have to tell him wat to cut.. he jus knew -

short spiked hair.. hahah =D

jus love the washin part... the gal massaged

my head.. felt soooo nice la xD

*snip* *snip* *snip*

and it was done! wah seh! hweeling hot all

of a sudden. =D

cut finish le was rushin down to cityhall

when this guy asked if i was interested in

workin wif the modelin agency.. lolz!

felt bad sia.. i gave him a wrng hp number...

lolz! not bad ar... i mus visit the salon

more often. wahahah! =D

lookin forward to KE tmrw!!

buaiz =D
Tuesday, November 06, 2007



love sunny days. i'll say to myself:

"life is beautiful."

love rainy days. i'll think of my past

and say to myself:

"memories have changed myself to what i

am today."



seeing all the baby photos of myself..

cant help but think...



its so much harder to smile when u grow older.



don't u agree? =)
Sunday, November 04, 2007



was feelin dam random. my frends suggested

swimming at the last min, and i agreed.

so we went swimmin at jq's house ystrday.

dam crazy la.. we did lots of weird

things in the water.

jus like the underwater handstand,

and i got a seriously painful

headache after dat! @.@ argh!

den we see who cld last the longest

underwater.. cldnt stop laughin even

underwater... i heard my frends

releasing huge amount of air and

i bursted into laughter.

And Finally it started.

No water activy would be complete

without the spitting part! hahaha.. we took

in mouthful of water den started spitting at each

other... wahahah! cant believe we so old

le stil doin dis... argh the warmth water

from their mouths flying into my face...

EWWWW! @.@ i decided to contemplate a

series of surprise atacks. i took in a mouthful

of water and pretended to give up..

when they got near enuff, i jus spit at eug!

he cryed out in dismay.."ARrrRgggHHHH! NOoooO!"

as though acid was being thrown onto his face.

wahahahah!!!

played in the swimmin poo as though we were

some tourists from a faraway desert,

first time see water. wahahah!

den we went back jq's apartment to shower,

we rang the doorbell a dozen times,

but no one open the door. we waited awhile,

and then my frend REALISED HE HAD THE KEY WITH

HIM ALL ALONG! WACK ar!!! @.@ lol

after shower we went westmall.. was feelin

so slpy and hungry and cold and grumpy and

tired and exhaursted and did i say i was

hungry? xD

went to eat mac.. decided to try McSpicy!

wah seh ! my first time eating leh...

reali dam sua ku lar haha..i eat until

sweat like a pig... but do pigs reali

sweat?

cheers. =D
Friday, November 02, 2007



ever had this happen to u?

u're in a near-empty bus. this dude boards

the bus, scans for empty seats, and he/she

come and sit nxt to u.

wat will be yur nxt reaction?

(a)start coughing and pretend to be realli
sick enough to scare him away.

(b)pretend to slp and snore loudly.

(c)call him/her a gay and move to a diff
seat.

(d)take out a knife, and ask him to move
in a polite manner.
Thursday, November 01, 2007